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Just like Bill Murray tellsPuxatony Phil in the movie Groundhog Day“Don’t drive mad,” I try not to blog mad.  Once that publish button is pushed your diatribe is sent out into the blogoverse.  It lasts forever.  Even when you delete from your own database it is still out there somewhere.  What I feel in the moment is not necessarily what I feel long term.  When I am angry I can write things I don’t want to live forever.  Today was a day that I had to take a breath and wait until I could calm down to post. 

Today was a special day for my 6 year old and my husband chose to miss it.  There is no way around it.  Yes there were reasons for him to not attend his son’s concert at school today.  Those reasons could have been overcome had he just thought about his son instead of himself.  Let’s face it I do that every day.  Read the rest of this entry »

Last night I was up late blogging and surfing-as usual-and I caught an interesting story on ABC’s Nightline.  The did a featue on a Mommy Blogger named Heather Armstrong from Utah.  She is actually making $40,000 per month from advertising on her blog http://dooce.com/ !  Her husband even quit his job to help her run her site.  I have a goal about what I would like to make online to help around here.  Between ebay, my blog and articles online I would like to make $3000 to cover our mortgage payment.  Now, I just started so I know that I have work to do but can you actually make a living from your blog? Read the rest of this entry »

I found a great little blog about family from my buddy Mary at Just the baby and me blog.  Here is a wonderful way to keep in touch with other bloggers that concentrate on family matters.  You shoudl check it out.

They are also running a contest to win a $100 gift card from Target.  Who would not LOVE that!

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There are days that I want to put my shoes on, grab my keys and walk out the door.  Why in the world did I let my life come to this?  Everything revolves around what goes in and what comes out.  The money that comes in is not enough to cover what is going out.  The more I try to organize and simplify our life by getting rid of things we don’t need more stuff coming piling in like school papers, new hunting and fishing gear hubby just HAD to have and the rocks and twigs my little one simply must keep inside.  As soon as I get feeding my kids they have dirty diapers!  Read the rest of this entry »

As a stay at home mom I am not bringing in any cash other than my ebay items (that haven’t taken off yet) and this blog.  Because of the fact that I can’t go out and work without all of my income going to child care, I try every day to make the money going out of the house a bit less and to make the money coming in go a bit further.  Every penny counts nowadays!  each time I can turn off the lights or leave the heat off when we are chilly counts.  I have had to look back at the way my mom stretched a buck to find inspiration as well as come up with a few new tricks of my own. Read the rest of this entry »

As a mother my ultimate goal is to raise my three sons to be happy and productive adults.  More than anything I want them to be happy.  They don’t have to grow up to be doctors or lawyers.  They don’t have to become president or save the world.  I just want my children to live their life safely and content.  I want them to be better people than me.

• I want them to be kind to everyone and not forget that each person has feelings of thier own.  It does not matter that the lady at the check out was rude.  She just may be having a bad day.
• I want them to be curious.  You never know what lies around the corner in life.
• I want them to live in the moment.  Just because there are exciting things to look forward to you shouldn’t forget to enjoy this very moment.  It won’t last forever.
• I want them to think of ways they can help other people everyday and not just focus on getting through the day with their mind in one piece.
• I want them to be grateful for all of the blessings they have in their life and to be able to tell the people in thier life that they are grateful for their love and support at every opportunity.
• I want them to use the word “I” a whole lot less than I do.  Things are not always about me and I wish I remembered that more.
• I want them to adore learning.  They may not love school but they have to strive to learn something everyday.
• I want them to feel a sense of honor in the choices they make for their lives.  There are no mistake that you can’t learn from.

I just want them to be better people than I can ever be.  They are my legacy I leave the world.  I hope they leave it better than I did.

I live across the street from a convience store.  Last night that store was the victim of an armed robbery.  I am completely freaked out.

My husband and I were sitting on the couch watching tv when I happed to glance up at a window in the hallway.  I saw red lights flashing and went to the front door to see what was going on.  The parking lot across the street had an ambulance and five police cars in it.  Right away my husband got up to see what was going on. Read the rest of this entry »

All hail the mom that can vacuum the entire house while holding a crying baby on her shoulder and a toddler rides the vacuum.

All hail the mom that can hold three jobs to make ends meet but still find time for bakes sales and running the brownie troop.

All hail the mom that can fight a disease like breast cancer and still find time to cheer you on at your swim meets.

All hail the mom that can hold down the fort at home while her husband holds down the fort and serves our country.

All hail the mom that can know just when you need a helping hand and just when you need to be told to buck up and grow up.

All hail the mom that can welcome you with open arms into your newly blended family like you are one of her own.

All hail the mom that can keep you as part of her family even after that blended family dissolves.

All hail the mom that has to cope with loosing a child while getting up every day and taking care and loving the ones she still has.

All hail the mom that can put her needs and wants after the needs and wants of her children.

All hail the mom that can go back to school at night for years to give her children a better life.

All hail the mom that can remember that it is our job to help our children grow to be better people than we are and to love every pain in the but moment that it takes to get them there.

I have many mothers in my life.  Some have been with me from the beginning and some have picked me up and “adopted” me along the way.  The best honor I could ever receive this Mother’s Day would be to be compared to these amazing women that have shown me what it truly means to be a mother.  To them I say I love you and Happy Mother’s Day!

Dedicated to Katie, Joanne, Judi, Jeri, Claire, Noreen, Kim, Val, Gail and all of my mommy blogger pals out there!

Check out this amazing charity to help babies get a healthy start in life from Johnson and Johnson; http://www.babycause.com I heard about it on http://blog.parentbloggers.com  It is what being a mom is all about!

There are some women that LOVE being pregnant.  They have never felt more wonderful, more alive, more feminine!  That is not me!  The longer I am pregnant the worse I feel.  By the end of my third, and last, pregnancy I was going insane.  Apparently there is something in the way that the baby pushes up my organs and stomach that makes me throw up until the day I give birth.  But through it all I know that there is an amazing gift at the end for all of my pain.  The worst part of pregnancy for me is not until about a month later.

When a woman is pregnant hormones change the way her hair grows.  Instead of all of the strands growing at their own rate they all grow at the same rate.  That is what gives many women such a thick head of hair when they are pregnant.  Between the prenatal vitamins and the hormones my hair was down the middle of my back and gorgeous.  Then I gave birth.  The hormones stopped their work on my follicles and it all started falling out!

Don’t get me wrong, I am not going bald.  It is however falling out in handfuls.  Each time I brush my hair or even run my fingers through it, out comes a clump of hair.  The drain of my shower is scary after my shower.  No matter what I do it keeps coming out.  I have resorted to wearing it up in a pony tail most times which pulls at it and even more comes out.

It has gotten to the point that it aggravates my family.  My hair is everywhere!  My kid’s bed, the living room sofa, even the kitchen.  I have to be so careful when I cook because the last thing we all need is my hair in every one’s food!

As they say, this too shall pass.  And let’s face it, if this is the worst thing about being pregnant then that is not too shabby.

I have heard it said that the state of a person’s home reflects how they feel inside.  That is very true of my home right now.  There are piles of stuff everywhere.  Toys are all over the floor in my sons’ room.  My kitchen table is a disaster and the dining room table has not been seen in months.  There is a group of things that simply moves from room to room and never find a home.  Every time that I try to get things organized it holds back the mess for a few days and then it explodes all over again.

I used to think that it just came with the territory of having three kids and a husband.  Today I realized that it is simply a sign that I am feeling confused and anxious.  Twice today I caught myself doing anything but what needed to be done.  It is if I am trying to avoid reality in every sense of the word.  Who cares about the dishes when i can check my email and browse for more crap to buy on ebay?  Read the rest of this entry »